The October issue of XXl Magazine is covered be none other than Kanye West titled “Love” and “Hate”. Of course, in true Kanye fashion his cover story is far from the norm, his 40 page section in the magazine consist of a first person narrative in which  he opens up about his mother’s death and the how the Taylor Swift incident changed him.

On his Mother’s Death

When I moved to LA, she moved to LA/ And she wound up in a place that would eat her alive. Even if I stayed in New York, it wouldn’t have been like that. If I had lived in New York, she’d still be here.”

On the Taylor Swift Incident

“In a way, I had thrown a Molotov cocktail at my own career, and it gave me an opportunity, for the first time, to go away and find out who I was,” he wrote. “Because I felt very alone.

“I stress that the incident wasn’t about Taylor personally, And it definitely wasn’t about race. Where I messed up is , at the end of the day, it’s your show, Taylor. It’s your show, MTV.”

On apologizing

“The relationship with the public and with your fans is like the relationship with your girlfriend. How could I not, at a certain point, be like, ‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been at the awards show. I’m sorry’? Not that I don’t deserve to get beat up or change who I am inside, to make sure that that doesn’t happen again.

On bouncing back

“I knew I wasn’t in a great spot publicly after the incident, but I would just block it out and work as hard as possible and let my work be my saving grace.”